Dear Hilo, Our vacation was lovely, though. I think we should take at least one picture of us together in each city we visit with one another. At least the major ones like San Francisco and Los Angeles, you know?Maybe it could be us kissing :DBut more than likely, it’ll be me stuffed into your sweaty armpit.
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Dear Hilo,

Our vacation was lovely, though.

I think we should take at least one picture of us together in each city we visit with one another.

At least the major ones like San Francisco and Los Angeles, you know?
Maybe it could be us kissing :D
But more than likely, it’ll be me stuffed into your sweaty armpit.

This Is a Story All About How…

This is a story all about how
My life got flipped-turned upside down
By a boy named Hilo
Who is quite divine
So this is how I ended up living in Irvine

It was in mid-Missouri where I was born and raised
On Aionsource is where I spent most of my days
Chillin’, chattin’, (and so was he)
Becoming popular amongst the social hierarchy
There were a couple of guys
Who weren’t any good
Tried to use me like I knew they would
When finally Hilo had to draw a line
He said, “Babe, come live with me in Irvine.”
I sprang for a train ticket
And the day drew near
That I would finally be able to get out of here
The conductor yelled, “All aboard!” and I hopped on the Amtrak
With my duffel bag up top along with my backpack.

I pulled up to the station about 9 or 10
Hilo was there with his silly-ass grin
My hand’s in his
And he’s all mine
And we’re living happily together here in Irvine.

Dear Hilo, The other night, I’m pretty sure I heard your heartbeat. At first, I just noticed this very slow, constant noise. I couldn’t hear you breathing, so I came to the conclusion that you had fallen asleep and rolled over on your mic, or something of the sort. So I pushed my microphone up to silence my breathing and rolled the volume dial up and closed my eyes. Thum…Thum…Thum… Besides your sleep-breaths and your voice, I’m going to admit that was the most comforting thing I’ve ever heard. All of a sudden, it wasn’t as if I was fifteen-hundred miles away, in a separate bed, linked through wires and signals. It was like I was there with you, my head against your chest, my fingers curled up against my neck and your arm hugged around me. When I closed my eyes, everything transformed. And I think, every single day, that we can really do this. That what we’re attempting isn’t really so impossible after all. That one day, soon, I’m going to have this, and it’ll be the best day. That every day after that is also going to be the best day. In all the land, baby. I’ve Kinda Fallen For You,A
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Dear Hilo,

The other night, I’m pretty sure I heard your heartbeat. At first, I just noticed this very slow, constant noise. I couldn’t hear you breathing, so I came to the conclusion that you had fallen asleep and rolled over on your mic, or something of the sort. So I pushed my microphone up to silence my breathing and rolled the volume dial up and closed my eyes.

Thum…
Thum…
Thum…

Besides your sleep-breaths and your voice, I’m going to admit that was the most comforting thing I’ve ever heard. All of a sudden, it wasn’t as if I was fifteen-hundred miles away, in a separate bed, linked through wires and signals. It was like I was there with you, my head against your chest, my fingers curled up against my neck and your arm hugged around me. When I closed my eyes, everything transformed.

And I think, every single day, that we can really do this. That what we’re attempting isn’t really so impossible after all. That one day, soon, I’m going to have this, and it’ll be the best day. That every day after that is also going to be the best day. In all the land, baby.

I’ve Kinda Fallen For You,
A

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Dear Hilo,

I’m currently on the manhunt for these out of state college fees. I have honestly scoured every link on the website, but it’s eluded me. I just don’t think they’ve added it on there. I hope it isn’t too costly. I would love to come out to California this summer to take a course in Mandarin Chinese and spend an entire month and a half with you. I’m also so, so, so scared. What if everything’s not as perfect as we think it will be? What if you actually hate me… How I look, the way I talk, my little quirks… I wouldn’t be able to stand myself.

I’m already doing it again. Retracting. Sometimes, I do it so fast I crack into a condensed block of ice, unable to move, unable to react. I’m fighting it, Hilo, I am. I need you. I need to feel this. I am done with letting things just “happen”. I want some control over how I feel, and how I’ll persevere for you. Every time I feel myself slipping into apathy, I grit my teeth, dig into my palms with my fingernails, and slam back against it, fighting as hard as I can.

I feel like I’m on a foreign plane of existence now. I’m either running as fast and as free as I ever have before, or my knees are buckling beneath me when the ground tilts and trembles. There are only polarities between us.

God, I need you.
‘Cause I don’t shine if you don’t shine. -The Killers

Always,
A